I want you to know, I love you. The moment I knew you were growing inside me, I loved you instantly. We had 10 beautiful weeks together. Even when I knew you had gone up to heaven, I cherished every moment my body could hold you. I used to talk to you, I knew you could hear me even though you couldn’t talk back to me.
I want you to know, I miss you. I never saw your face or got to hear your adorable laugh but I miss every part of you. I miss the promise of the person you would have been. When I found out you wouldn’t be mine on earth, your entire life flashed before my eyes. I saw your first birthday, I saw you going to kindergarten, I saw your graduate from college, and I saw you marry the women of your dreams. Yes, I was never given confirmation but I am certain you were a boy.
I want you to know, you are forever in my heart and with me always. There will never be a day that goes by that I won’t think of you. Even if someday I’m blessed with a child here on earth, you made me a mother. I’m eternally grateful that you choose me as your mother. I so wish I could have watched you grow. I’ll never know why God gave you to me for just a short period of time. I know you are watching me from heaven with your grandfather. Please tell him I said hi and I love him too.
I want you to know, you are the best thing that ever happen to me (besides your father of course, you are the best gift he ever gave me). Although lossing you was by far the worst things that ever happen to me, I wouldn’t have it any other way my little darling. I would do it again a million times just to have you growing inside me. Which is why, I’m trying ever so hard to give you a brother or sister. When you talk to God, put in a good word for us ok?
I don’t want to keep you too long my sweet boy, I know you have lots of playing to do and sweet dreams to have. I just needed you to know that mommy and daddy love you to the moon and back, always and forever. Happy New Years my little darling.