Welcome to another Monday loves!
I usually write about my week, day by day, and go off pictures I’ve taken that day. Since this week has been, well, pretty hard as far as TTC goes, I thought I’d update you guys on what’s been going on and let you know what the future holds for the next few weeks.
After my appointment with my fertility doctor at the end of January, we decided IVF was going to be our best option for getting pregnant and hopefully staying pregnant. You can’t just start IVF when you want to, it works on cycles so I have to wait till May until I can do our first round. In the meantime, I didn’t want to just sit around and wait, I wanted to be proactive. Tricare will not pay for IUI, our only option is to do medicated only cycles which have a very low probability of working but it’s better than nothing and the medication makes you produce more than one egg so you have at least double the chance of conceiving (think 2 or 3 cycles in just 1).
I should know by this point, not to get my hopes up but every cycle, I do. I hope and I pray and I try to stay confident that this month will be my month. So this cycle, I was extra hopeful because I was using medication. I know it’s not a definite but maybe, just maybe this medication will do the trick.
I was able to produce 2 big, fat, beautiful eggs after 8 days of oral meds and injections. We did everything we were suppose to do. I had my trigger shot on Friday, February 26th and the two week wait began.
I tested out my trigger shot to see when it would leave my system. The shot is basically the HCG which gives you false positive pregnancy test.
It finally left my system 10 days past trigger which was also 8 days past ovulating my two lovely eggs. I patiently waited for the lines to start getting dark again but unfortunately they never did. Two days later, I took a First Response to confirm once and for all if I was pregnant or not. That one also was negative.
I knew at this point, this cycle was done and over with but of course, still hopeful because I didn’t get my period yet, I was praying for a miracle. That last stitch of hope was done on Saturday when I got my period.
Let’s look to the future and leave the past in the past. We will do one more medicated cycle since we have the time and really, what else are we going to do? Of course, I don’t think it will work I feel like we are destined to go through IVF and I’m not even sure that will work either but it’s something different and when you try something new, there is always a sense of hope it may just work.
In the meantime, the beach and yoga will be my saving grace. To keep my mind and soul quiet…well as quiet as i can possibly make it.
If you are still with me at this point, I thank you for reading and caring about my journey. I don’t know if I could make it without your support and love. I really hope to update this blog with good news in the near future. I’d like to say It would be great to never look back on this journey but I’ve learned so much about this struggle, I wouldn’t take it back for anything in the world. It’s hard most of the time but it’s changed me in a way nothing else could ever do.
Thanks for reading and if you pray, please say a prayer for me and Evan. We sure could use it now.
I’ll talk to you guys next week when I have a real My Week Be Like post up.