It’s been awhile since I’ve given you any kind of update about my personal story. I figured it’s about time since I have some news. Evan and I had taken a bit of a break while we figured out our financial situation. I’m not going to lie, it’s been nice not going to all the appointments, doing the shots, and having lots of negative pregnancy tests to cry about.
I also secretly hoped I’d get pregnant by surprise like I did last year. But no such luck there. Doesn’t mean we don’t try. It’s sad when I start my monthly but since we aren’t doing anything extra and are saving some money, It quickly gets pushed aside and I think to the future.
So what’s new?
So here’s the update: We were planning to have IVF up in NY for one, and only one, reason: it was cheaper. Not just cheaper; thousands of dollars cheaper. The success rate was the same but it was going to cost us much less.
I really wanted to have the procedure here, though. If we had it done here, my husband would have a much better chance of being there with me (I know this method of conception doesn’t require the hubby to be there, but it’d still be nice!) and I could recover in my own home; and the significance of that can’t be overstated, by the way. I want to be as calm and relaxed as I can be to try to give the IVF the best possible chance of success. As sad as it is, money constraints have kept us tethered back in NY. After many prayers, however, I feel like my prayers were answered by divine intervention and we were blessed to receive a completely unexpected gift making a change in plan possible and I’m incredibly happy to say, we will be having IVF here in FL next month!IVF here we come! Read our update now! Click To Tweet
It just seems like it’s meant to be because the next cycle in NY’s office wouldn’t start till December and Evan will be deployed at that time. I think we will still have Evan’s sperm frozen, though; just in case. You never know with the military; what could happen and when he might have to pick up and take off. I figure it’s always good to have a back up plan so time and resources don’t go to waste.
I may be freaking out a little
I’m not going to lie, as excited as I am, I’m also scared to death. I don’t know what the heavy medication will do to me. Hate being put to sleep (for the retrieval) and the possible effects of having so many eggs removed (leaky ovaries). I know I was meant to do this; it’s my destiny. There’s no denying that the path of my destiny is sometimes a mystery to me, though.
This may be my only chance to have a biological child of my own and it’s scary how final that is. I’ve decided if my egg quality is bad and this is a complete failure, we will go to plan B; which is donor eggs. I’ve started slowly preparing myself to come to terms with that. I think I would be happy to have a child that is half my amazing husband. My genes won’t be passed to a new generation but I know they live in my adorable nephews. I know I can be happy with this relation, if it’s what God wants. But that’s a worry for the future. For now, the IVF is a GO!
Do you want me to post more updates?
I will most certainly have more updates coming soon. It’s about to get real exciting around here. I’m ready for the next step in our journey, no matter the outcome.
If you have had IVF, what’s one thing you wish you would have known?
Great book if you are thinking about or about to start IVF:
The IVF (In Vitro Fertilization) Journal: The Solution for Managing Practitioners, Tests, Medications, Appointments, Procedures, Finances, and the Emotional Aspects of Your Journey