Dear TTC Sisters,
If you have been keeping up with my story, then you may know I’m currently 12 weeks pregnant. It’s been a hard journey so far with the constant fear of losing another pregnancy (I’ve had 2 consecutive miscarriages) weighing on me. Even though I’ve made it further than I ever have before, I still don’t feel out of the woods. I digress, though. This isn’t about me, it’s about you, my TTC sisters: those warriors in the fight against infertility.
I want you to know: I’m aware my pregnancy news may be hurting you right now. I’ve been in that same situation. Every pregnancy announcement can feel like a stab in your heart and for this, I am so sorry. The pain every month of having a negative test over and over again is so fresh in my mind I don’t think I will ever be able to shake it. Which is why, no matter the outcome of this pregnancy, I promise I will continue to fight the battle for infertility awareness. I won’t take a single moment for granted. I’m still here for you; now and always. I have felt the sting of a fellow infertility warrior who gains their baby and fades away from this cause. And although I definitely understand it, I will not do that.
What I want, more than anything, is for you to look at my story and journey and know:
There is hope.
I want you to believe that your miracle will happen. I wish I could say when it will happen but I know that God will never leave you empty. He will fill the missing piece of your heart. If having a child is something you want more than anything, I know you will not give up and your persistence, patience, and love will pay off in the end.
As for the future of this blog, it will change as my life does. There will be posts about pregnancy and the journey of becoming a mother if that is where my life is heading after all. Just know, I will continue to write about infertility because it has been a major part of my life for the past 10 years. And it will never stop effecting the way I look at everything.
I am here for you and will continue to you every step of the way. Please feel free to keep messaging me and reaching out to me.
Gentle loving hugs to you all,